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Alex, when I read your post last night I couldn't believe the similarities in our stories. On Tuesday, I had to put my kitten Toki to sleep because he had wet FIP. Even stranger, our kittens sounded as through they had very similar personalities and looked very much alike. (He wasn't a polydactyl, but my other cat Royce is.)
Unlike you, I've had the pleasure of having kitties all my life, but I tell you, Toki was my absolute favorite, so it completely breaks my heart.
I was married last year in May and already had Royce before I met Erik. In October, we decided to make the leap and get a second kitty - one that the two of us picked out together. We fell in love with a 1 lb 10 week kitten at the SPCA, brought him home and named him Toki. (Ours from from the Adult Swim show "Metalocalypse.")
Toki was full of personality - always a lover, had a mighty purr and always wanted to be near you. He would sleep by us, sit by us, and rub his little head on our faces. He was very playful and extremely well behaved. He was my best friend.
At the end of March, I noticed that his belly was a bit large, he wasn't eating much and he had trouble going using the litter box. One Friday morning before work I called to make an appointment because I thought he might be constipated. They told me to bring him in right away.
After an hour of taking him in the back for tests and then bringing him back to me while they'd analyze him, I started freaking out. Always the sweetheart, Toki would purr when I held him in the medical room before he'd go off to take another test. When the vet told me about the fluid, showed me some he extracted and went over the blood test, it finally hit me that there was nothing we could do. He said FIP and I just started crying. Like you, I stayed at home bawling all day and in complete shock. No work for me that Friday.
My husband and I were completely crushed. We gave him some prednisone to help keep inflamation of his organs down and to increase his appetite. He ate the good cat food and got more love and attention than he probably thought possible. That little guy had so many pictures taken and is in so many videos now, because I knew that soon, that would be all I had. :-(
Toki made it 12 more days, but they were so stressful. I was constantly choking back tears, waking up at night to make sure he was okay, checking on him when he ate and used the litter box - it was exhausting. My husband and I appreciated every last meow, purr and attempt that Toki made to be near us.
Tuesday morning, something was different. I just knew it was the day we'd have to euthanize him (something I had never done because my mom would take care of it). I said goodbye to him before leaving for work and I knew that was the last time.
I left work early and my husband called. Toki hadn't eaten all day so we knew what we had to do. We gave him some love and he hid in the laundry room on a shelf. We know that when cats are ready to die, they go off on their own. That sweet little baby let us know when it was time - he was perfect down to the last hour.
At the vet, he laid on his favorite blue blanket. The vet gave him a sedative and wouldn't you know? He started purring! That brought so much joy to my husband and me. We kissed him, pet him, talked to him and reminisced about the fun things we did with Toki. The vet came back in and administered the shot in his leg. Toki never looked more comfortable and peaceful. After a minute or two, the vet checked his heart and said "he's gone." My husband and I silently weeped, pet and kissed Toki once more and told him we loved him.
That was almost 4 days ago. We felt a relief knowing that he was no longer in pain, but it has been hard not having him in the house with us. Our other cat Royce is mourning too - searching for Toki, howling in the middle of the night - which is so hard to watch.
Even though my baby was destined to have a short life, we are lucky that WE were the ones he was able to spend it with. We showed that little guy the most spectacular life he could have had.
I hope that your pain lessens over time, and I hope mine does as well. I've been fortunate enough to have very understanding family, friends and coworkers. I've received lots of comfort and support because they know that cats are family. Best of luck to you.
The day we got him.
Toki on my husband's shoulder.
Toki and Royce.
The day he was diagnosed.
I miss my baby.
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| Hi i am very sorry to here about your kitten toki. what a pretty kitten. i know how you feel i losted 2 of my kitten to fip. an you did the right thing by not letting your kitty suffer.i know it's hard to say good-bye to your kitty but time will help. you will never get over losing your kitty but time will help. I lost syvester when he was 5 months old an i losted ty when he was 1 year old. I still think about them all the time. when time comes an you fill like you are ready to get another kitten then get one. Because of losin my babies now i help all homeless kitties because syvester an ty were homeless when they came to me. so i guess that helped me to. well i hope you are doing find by the time you read this. we will be praying for you. kim from cats haven in liberty
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